A little check-in

I’ve been writing a lot of new music lately. There’s been a lot on my mind, so what’s a girl to do? We agreed to write a few songs for this next album as a band, so my guitarist is already getting worried that I’ll end up writing the entire thing by myself again, haha. He doesn’t have a thing to worry about, because most of these songs will probably never see the light of day.

The last few months have been a journey and a learning experience to say the least. I’ve faced a lot of harsh realities and another few heartbreaks. Summer is sad girl season I guess. But at the end of the day, I’m down for everything the world wants to throw at me as long as I continue feeling inspired to make music.

I’m feeling more isolated than ever, and simultaneously more stimulated. Up until a couple months ago, when we got back from tour, I used to work on things for the band every single day. When we returned to Denver, I just let myself check out, and gave my brain and body some rest from constantly thinking about what I had to get done. I was a little mad at myself for getting so sidetracked this summer, but what I kept telling myself was “everyone deserves a break sometimes”. And it’s true. I’ve basically been going nonstop for the band for the last two and a half years, and I felt that it was time I gave my brain and body a little vacation. It was much needed, but I’m ready now. I’m feeling more focused than ever and ready to start gearing up for our next string of shows and this killer new album we’re going to make.

I’m thankful for everything that’s happened, the good and bad. It will all rise to the surface at its own pace. For now, it’s my writing inspiration. I know it was all for a reason, and I’m totally fine with just letting the universe hold the reins. Clearly it knows what it’s doing.



Obligatory Day-After-Show Post

First of all, I’d like to thank Chris Dillinger, Lola, and the rest of the Lola Black crew for letting us be a part of your special night, and for always having our back and treating us like family. Never a bad show with these guys. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, and congrats on the new album. I’m absolutely in love with it.

And of course, a huge thank you to the main man Danny Sax for believing so much in us and continuing to help us along in our journey. I truly appreciate everything you do for us.

To Right Before Rain and Son Survivor, it was a pleasure to share the stage with you guys. You both put on absolutely killer sets.

Thank you to our best pal Nic Smith for helping us out on merch, and to our rock n roll dad Aaron Saye for being our main support through every stepping stone since the beginning. It’s because of you that we’re here, Aaron. It’s impossible to express my level of gratitude.

And last but never least, I can’t sum into words how much our fans mean to me. Seeing all of these creative, unique, and kind hearted people in the audience at every show warms my heart and takes all of the nerves away. Nothing feels more comforting than looking down into an audience of smiling faces singing along and rocking out to our music and making these shows such an intimate experience for me. Damn it I love you all so much, that I’m tearing up while typing this. You’re helping make my dreams come true every day, and I’ll forever be trying to repay you all for that. Thank you.

Until next time,


New Music

I’ve been deep in thought lately, so naturally I’ve been writing a lot. Writing for the band, but also writing for myself, just to deal with my life the way I always have. Next week I’m recording a solo song. That’s something I haven’t done in years, but this song means a lot to me, and I want to see it come to life. Since I’m doing it for myself more than anything, recording and releasing this song feels very low stress for me, and I love that.

A lot has happened. I don’t have a good way to phrase it and I don’t care enough to bother. All I know is that a lot of music is coming from it. I’m waking up from dreams with lyric ideas. Sometimes I’m up all night just writing music. As they say, from heartbreak comes inspiration.

The Wind and I are playing a brand new song at our show with Lola Black at the Gothic next month. I’m really proud of this one. It’s the first song that I’ve written and recorded the parts for every instrument before working on it with the band. And of course, they made it ten times cooler.

I don’t know, I guess a lot is happening. I’m feeling change coming.



Checking out

I didn’t wake up one day and decided “I’m going to be an artist. I’m going to write songs. Alright let’s do this.” It just sort of happened.

I started taking classical piano lessons when I was seven and eventually started experimenting with my own ideas. They felt very natural.

I remember when I was 10 or 11 years old I started carrying around a mini composition notebook that I wrote lyrics in whenever they popped into my mind. They were pretty dark even then. I wrote about death and dying, isolation, poor body image, etc. It only took four years and a breaking point to discover that I had depression and finally got medicated.

I think back on that time a lot. Music was literally what saved my life. To this day it has always been my motivator and my escape from the world around me.

From day one I loved playing shows. It felt liberating. It was my comfort zone and my happy place. It still is. Even the closest people to me say that I turn into a completely different person on stage, but I just see it as that is where I open up the most.

I started the band with the intent of really jumpstarting my life in music. From day one of The Wind I’ve been going at top speed without ever slowing down. I guess that’s a good thing and a bad thing. I’ve gotten a lot done, but I get tired sometimes.

It only took a year but I ended up finding the most wonderful human beings to play music with. They’re my best friends, and I wouldn’t trade them for anything. It’s times like these I value them the most.

Being an artist is hard. It’s vulnerable, sad, destructive, painful, lonely, expressive, honest and beautiful. It’s chaos, and I love it. Music was always what I turned to when life got the best of me. And that’s what I think makes you an artist, the need to create in order to keep yourself going. Enchiridion of Nightmares got me through a very difficult change in my life, but it also broke down my walls. Since I got done writing it I’ve become much more connected to my emotions that were masked by anger on the album. I’m digging deeper now. There’s something I’m trying to get out and I’m not letting fear silence the things I need to say. If I can’t talk about it, at least I can sing about it. I write to express what I can’t otherwise. I write for myself. The right people will like it. For those who don’t, I really don’t care.

I’m extremely grateful to have the next five days to do nothing but write and create. I need that right now.

Be safe tonight and tomorrow (and all the time) everyone. I’m checking out to make more art.

Writing, feeling.

I’m so pleased with the songs I’ve been writing lately. Enchiridion of Nightmares was my release of heartbreak and mostly anger and fear, hence the horror themes. In a strange sense, when I was writing the album, it felt like I lost myself to my anger and fear of losing more than I already had. I explored new levels of danger in myself. “Zombie” is a great example of that. Never thought I’d write a song like that in my life. It was a time of self-discovery, growth, and recovery. That album was honestly just a massive therapy session that I had been needing for a while, so it went to some scary parts of my brain at times. I’m proud as hell of it though, and I’m glad I went through what I did because otherwise those songs wouldn’t exist. So worth it.

The music I’ve been working on recently reminds me very much of the music I was making when I played by myself. It has a very ballad-like feel to it, and it feels like me again. The lyrics aren’t about resentment or anger or any of those negative feelings or thoughts that were weighing me down for so long. By no means is that saying that I’m no longer a “sad girl” or that I’m writing party pop songs now. No. I’m just writing about the present, what I’m feeling and experiencing around me right now. It’s sad but not hopeless, and I love that. I feed off of my sadness in that way. Don’t feel bad for me, it’s how I make music and I NEED it. Haha

I wrote a few instrumentals about a month ago that I just sat on for a while because I felt nervous about writing the lyrics that I wanted to write to them. I wasn’t sure how they’d be interpreted, if I was pushing some boundaries with the topics, etc. While we were on tour I basically told myself to quit being afraid and to just write whatever the hell I want to be writing about. I ended up completing lyrics for a song while we were on the road. I guess one thing I’ve been learning lately is to stop letting fear consume me. So I’m wearing my heart on my sleeve and writing about what’s really on my mind and in my heart. And I don’t care what anyone will have to say about it, because it’s allowing me to express things that I can’t openly talk about otherwise, and that’s what music has always been for me, it’s my voice and my platform to express myself and deal with my ridiculous life and the obstacles it throws at me.

Michelle and I have been collaborating on a couple of new songs, and hooooly shit do they sound cool. Even with just the piano. She’s so talented and adds to much ornamentation to the melodies I bring to the table and we’re even adding layers of piano lines which I am beyond stoked on. And she knows the things I’m wanting to write about because heck she’s my best friend and I tell her everything so I can freely sing the words that I’m feeling and not worry about it, which is making these songs so raw and honest. Damn I’m so excited. Thanks for making music with me, Shell. 💙

Even though we’re strapped in for the next storm, the ride of Enchiridion of Nightmares is not over. That album is too damn important to me and I can’t wait to bring out more layers of it. Look out for cool shit coming soon.

(I’m talking about the album on IndieSceneRadio.com tomorrow at 5pm Denver time. And the album will be played in its entirety. Tune in if you’re interested.)

If you read all of this, I love you. Have a good rest of your week, Stormchasers.

Tour of Terror

Denver, it’s so good to be back. As much as I loved our time on the road, there’s no place like home.

I won’t delve into why we decided to come home a day early, but in summation, we are all okay. It was the best decision for our bandmate, and I have no regrets. I do appreciate all of the kind messages and concerns. Thank you to everyone who reached out.

Tour was so much fun. Every city we played in, we made so many wonderful new friends and fans, and the venues were all incredibly welcoming and gracious. Thank you to all of the promoters who booked us, venues who hosted us, bands who played with us, fans who came out to see us, and friends who let us crash on their floors. You all contributed to making this tour possible, and we are very grateful.

On to the next adventure.

Our One Year Anniversary

With getting older I’ve become more comfortable with being emotional and sentimental.

One year ago today, we had our first practice with the new lineup. It was the happiest I felt after two months of absolute hell. I remember driving home after practice that night, crying with a smile on my face. I’m sure I’ve made it plenty clear by now how much I love and appreciate each of these people. I’m such a goober.

Meeting them again in a couple hours for our final practice before tour.

If I could spend my whole life celebrating anniversaries with tours, I would be fulfilled.


Two days.

I am ready.