“The greatest mistake you can make is to be continually fearing you will make one.”
Sharone here. I’ve always been secretive and vague about my personal life, but I love it when you guys are open with me, and I want to start being just as open with all of you. So here it goes.
For some of the newer fans, you may not know that about ten months ago, I went through the hardest change of my life. After less than a year of playing with a full band, for a variety of reasons, my first lineup deteriorated all at once. I was devastated. The circumstances under which the band fell apart made it harder. I put all of my faith and trust into all the wrong people. My music is everything to me. It’s what I breathe and bleed. It’s my entire life. Watching people I trusted hold that in their hands and try to set it on fire was heartbreaking, and it drastically changed me.
Ever since, I’ve struggled with a higher level of anxiety than I ever have in my life. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety almost five years ago, but I stopped taking my medication just a couple years later. Due to my recently increased level of anxiety to the point of behavioral changes and paranoia, I made the decision to get back on my meds. It was the best decision I could have possibly made for myself.
The lineup change took a really big toll on me. I’ve put my entire life into my music, and watching all of it nearly come to an end in the way that it happened was traumatizing. However, it inspired a whole new album to come out of me. It allowed me to find the bandmates I’ve always wanted. It allowed me to find my best friend amongst them. It allowed me to grow as a person and a musician.
Even on my hardest days, my bandmates, our music, and our fans, YOU GUYS are what keep me going. Thank you for all of your love and support through the chaos. I can’t wait to share the new album with you, AND our new music video for “Demons” which comes out THIS FRIDAY.
“You haven’t heard the last of me.”